Where you just want to do nothing but draw. You have the image perfectly in your mind on what you want, how you'll go about executing in every shape and form. Then when it comes to putting it one paper, you begin to nag at yourself to produce something better. No matter how hard you try with each picture, your mind just keeps screaming "You can do better!" And thus, this quest of perfection you want to outdo the last picture you made, wanting each to be 'better then the rest'.

It's totally how I've been feeling with my art lately, to the point where I run myself into numerous art blocks and little ruts. It's just so frustrating when your sketchbook is filled with lousy sketches and scribbles, a few of them being works you actually are proud of and like.

But, I should sit back and relax. An instructor said to me once that art can never always be perfect. In your minds eye, a sketch or image may seem like crap, but to someone else it's perfect whether you want to believe it or not. He is of course, quite right and I shouldn't be winding myself up too much about this situation. I need to relax, take deep breaths and find my focus again, instead of dwelling to that place of perfection. I just need it to come naturally.

Even if I hate showing my sketches to people, I think I need to open up more with them. I always too for granted that my pictures felt incomplete if they were left in rough pencils, having no bold inking or coloring. They always feel like they're nothing someone should see. Like, they should see the finished product rather then what it once was, even if those sketches are beautiful in all thier rough, black and white nature.

Probably sound like some philosipher spewing some random art knowledge there. And I do apologise for not being so active as of late. This journal kind of sums up what I have been going through in terms of my art.